Still not divorced yet was instructed by STBX to find another girlfriend, so I did, she is beautiful. Problem is 15months later I find out she is just as toxic. Just because I was tired of her hinting at marriage everytime we met, me 48 her 37 with a kid, I have two young lads, I eventually stopped saying well maybe in the future, to a flat no. Well she blew up! I was this and that and profanities even said she would kill me if turned up at her place! Wtf! Complete tantrum! and it's been about 5 similar since we met. I explained, hey i'm still married and trying to divorce... also living the matrimonial home and it's difficult as it is. To jump into another marriage is not really high priority right now. Any way I have been ignoring the GF texts and calls until this eve. She was sounding all calm but trying to blame me. I said i just want to be alone. I pick up my clothes and give back her keys to her flat tomorrow, from the shop next door. Jeeze, what have i gotten myself into. The wife is highly hostile at everymoment at home too. Life is not easy right now. Now I have lost my respite and couple of nights in London. Oh well slow train tomorrow in to work for me. I think i just need to get used to being on my own and buy a motorbike and be present for my boys.