Let me tell you,

I was a young guy that had some burns. I was insecure and damaged with bad resources and somehow found TRP (but before that just seduction)

It seemed fine. I started to get results. I learned to better understand how people were behaving and feeling. I also started to learn canned lines or behaviors to make someone feel a certain way I wanted.

It was great and I burned through a few people and broke some hearts. It was a bit cathartic and vindictive yet still empowering.. except it still never felt authentic. (Out of fear my real thoughts were not good).. Each body added to my stock of ammo to take down the next body.

3-6 months I was having women go crazy and all infatuated with me to eventually get so frustrated with my lack of humanity and connection that I blew them out and made it their problem or they blew me out.. which just added to my conviction.

I never learned anything about connecting and I had real beautiful people asking me for it. I was toxic.

And it feels like shit. Still feel like a husk. Yes, lots of good good lessons about assertiveness, or choosing what I want, but I trained myself to feel less and lose sense.

I found a beautiful woman who showed me the deepest most intimate interest in who I am and opened layers of me. She picked me open and got herself into being as much my right hand as my own and you-know-what I did?

I stuck to my playlist and neglected her care and thoughtfulness. A year in and she tells me she's lonely with me.

The first person who ever told me with all my new insecure power that I'm still unfulfilling.

Hurts. It validates what I've always thought and it hurts now the person I wished from day 1 I told them how I think and feel and I couldn't because the script said it would make me weak.

Fuck the script. Don't do it.