[Trigger Warning: Abuse and Rape]

As all the dust is starting to settle from finding out what was done to me starting in 2014 through 2022, I'm in awe at the complete lack of concern for the victims. We're degraded, bullied, extorted, threatened, etc. into staying quiet. I was, according to lawyers and many others, raped by one of my PUAs in 2016 because he/we never discussed some of the more 'rougher' things prior. I consented to sex, but a few other things that happened was definitely not consentual, but I went along because I was taught to take the man's lead and that he would take care of me if I took care of him.

I believed I was safe with him.

That's the biggest load of bullshit that I was fed during my upbringing. "Be a good wife, and you'll have you a good husband". I was the good wife. I had a career and still came home to do all my wife duties, take care of my clients, and even occasionally play video games with my friends. What I didn't realize until I looked back through all my notes and journal entries, was that I was blunting HARD and supressing a massive problem within my groups of friends, most notably with the guys, but the girls too. We were becoming very broken and none of us knew why.

All of us were simultaneously experiencing issues while being with men that were eerily similar.

If I share my experiences, some of my abusers slide into my DMs to remind me that they're watching (most notably after the extortion threat in June of 2021) and that they have discrediting materials on me. So unfortunately, due to that, and after the very clear extortion threat, I don't get to share much, but the good thing is, because I don't break too many rules, and I know exactly who this all stems from. I never reported him for anything because of the extortion, but now I don't care. They took everything from me anyways, might as well share everything with the world right?

I loved him and he didn't even care...and even 6 years later, they still find me to laugh at me over it all.

What would you do?