I dated a guy for 2 years, when we met, he was unemployed and i encouraged him to get a job, my best friend kept making fun of him for not buying me gifts or paying for my food even though we dated for nearly an year by that time so he started paying (that's when i realized i will never go dutch with a man ever again). He convinced me to get rid of that best friend and i did. I regret it, she was the most FDS strategy woman i ever met. She was wise and ruthless. I miss her, i betrayed her trust by not doing something very important that she asked me to do for her (pick up an important document) because i was busy with him. I missed my class reunion because i was busy with him. I missed my great grandmother's 90 birthday because i was busy with him. She was the one who raised me and i didn't even come to her birthday because i was busy with some boy.

One month before our 2 years anniversary on my birthday he was on his phone in a restaurant in front of my whole family and excused it with "I'm texting my mom" he wasn't, he was texting his pickmeishas that hated me to the core and were obsessing over him. They were talking badly of me. On my birthday. And he let them.

I snatched the phone from his hand and found out he was texting them when he promised me he wouldn't and he brushed it off as "Your family doesn't even speak (our country's language) so i felt like i don't belong" F*ck you. My family came here LEGALLY for a better life. A better opportunity. How dare you be disrespectful towards them? F*ck you. They didn't learn the language because they were busy working so i could have a good life, food on the plate and a roof above my head. So f*ck you for excusing you being not loyal and meeting up with those women behind my back with my family's language barrier.

He deleted the chat with 2 of the pickmeishas and sent a goodbye message the other, i still left him. I found out from a mutual friend that he sent that pickmeisha a message following "Sorry, she was looking through my phone. Ignore the message" and i still kept talking to him. I found out he talks badly of me and pretends to be the victim in front of another best friend of mine and completely turned her against me. Honestly? I don't care, f*ck them both.

Today was the last straw, he told a mutual friend a secret of mine. I confronted him and he said he didn't and refused to admit to it. He hang up and i realized i shouldn't bother, i blocked him everywhere without any goodbye messages or an explanation. Goodluck reaching to me now, asshole.

I'm crying as i write it because it makes me realize i missed so many important things because of him and he was not worth it. I kept talking to him after what happened on my birthday for the sake of friendship, we had many mutual friends who would pick his side if i cut him off. Today i finally cut him off, f*ck him. F*ck them. Want to pick him? go ahead, i couldn't care less and i definitely do not need them in my life.

I feel relieved yet sad at the same time because he was a big part of my life and he made me lose 3 friends. F*ck him, f*ck anyone who sides with him.