Experiencing sex with pornsick men has hurt me. The last person I was with was the type to skip the foreplay in videos and only watch the penetration. It showed. Sex with him was so bland and detached, it was fast moving and all about his orgasm. I don't think he even saw it as intimacy with me. I think it was just frustrating masturbation that took longer than using his hand. He hardly looked at me or interacted with me. It makes me cry to think about it and I never really had a good time. I wasn't usually wet enough and it hurt. I'm scared I'll never have the kind of sex life that I want. I'm scared of meeting someone and finding out they have a favourite camgirl. My one ex who didn't like porn was also a sook who asked me questions about my past sex life only to shame me for the answers. He was also shit at sex. I'm starting to think raising my standards means I'm going to be alone and celibate for a long time.