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A couple weeks ago, my (20F) boyfriend (20M) and I had a decently rough patch. We had some disagreements and lack of emotional contact, but we tried our best to talk it out and get back on track.

He always ends these arguments with “let’s forget about this and move on.” That was my first red flag, because clearly if we just “moved on” the issue would come back in a new form and we would start back at square one.

A main focus about our arguments have been how I disappear for an hour or two without responding to his messages. Usually it’s because of homework, but he still gets ticked off and he’s mentioned how he wishes we would talk more. It’s understandable to want more communication, and I admit I could pay attention to notifications more, but most of the time I make it clear when I have to do work but he would rather push and ask if I could join him in playing online games instead.

On top of these arguments, I’ve been relatively stressed trying to read his emotions. He makes it clear when he’s not feeling good, but that’s about it. I have no idea why or what to do, and when I ask if he’s okay, he always responds with “I’m fine” while making it painfully obvious that he isn’t.

I don’t think I see him in a love kind of way anymore. To me, we have fun as friends, but when it comes to actually being in the relationship, there are so many bumps and curves that have stressed me more than made me feel happy, and I’ve been considering a break up. Unfortunately, this is my first boyfriend, and would be my first break up. I feel guilty thinking like this because he’s the type to blame himself and himself only, which I don’t want to happen, which is where some of my hesitation is.

What should I do?