From a little over a week ago, I cannot stop seeing signals. Without previously searching for anything related, my youtube feed started suggesting me chateau renovations, which, I have always DREAMED to buy an old house in the country and renovate it myself. But CHATEAUX!!! Not even my dreams were so big, so now I'm questioning... Why the hell not?

And today among the suggestions on my main page I find a channel of an etiquette comsultant, Jamila Musayeva, started watching and it feels like something is clicking. It's a weird feeling, more like something is pulling...

I am shy and feel awkward in public and this many times has prevented me from doing things I wanted to do, and I'm finding her videos so interesting and useful!

And it's the first time in months I find myself enjoying planning things for myself after a very bad breakup I also posted here about.