I am a 40 year old woman. I really don’t know what want. Got out of a long (20 years) long marriage. Arranged,traditional, no love. 4 children. Had a brief (1.5 years) relationship, quite intense. Lot of love. Bad heart break. 6 months single.

Ready to date again, but clueless as to what I want. Living alone thousands of miles away from family and children. I date guys (above 40) but realizing most don’t want anything serious. I don’t know myself if I want something serious. But I can’t just hook up ! I need a relationship but then I can’t even let a man tie me down. I want companionship but I am scared of being vulnerable and dependent .. so confused