43 year old man and I've never been married or had a girlfriend..I lack self confidence..my father was murderously violent and beat and screamed at me almost every day from the ages of 12-18..Women treat me like shit...Sometimes I feel completely invisible to them.. I almost enjoy being alone these days, but people will discriminate heavily against me and make judgementsabout thing they have no idea about.. They are scared of me and they are externalizing their own fears onto me..