So here´s my story... I’m 37 years old and met this 29 year old woman on a dating app. Before that i used to say that i would never get married and that i didn’t want to be in a relationship. I have a huge house, sports cars and plenty of disposable income. Why would I risk losing half of it to a gold digger? And why would I settle with one woman when I could be dating plenty of young women. Anyway, when we first started going out, I didn’t take it seriously at first. She was not that pretty (a 7), and she was not the outgoing/funny type I like to date. After sleeping with her I even thought of breaking it up, but I decided to keep seeing her to see what happened and because she seemed nice. I’m sure you can tell by now what happened next. I started seeing her more often, almost every day, she grew up on me. I told her I loved her and she said she loved me back. And I felt the happiest I’ve ever felt in years when I was with her. But when I was not with her I felt anxious and like I was missing something. I started regretting all the time lost in the last few years when I stubbornly decided to stay single and not be in a relationship. I felt life was so much colorful and enjoyable with her next to me. Anyway, one day (after 2 months of being together) I said some mean things to her, I was in a bad mood. I apologized to her the next day and she made it seem like everything was ok. But then, she decided to break up with me. Just like that. I apologized profusely, sent her flowers, but nothing would change her mind, I never saw her again. At first, I felt bad with myself over why did I have to be so stupid and mess up a perfectly good thing. But then I thought how could she be so cold. You don’t break up a relationship like that over some comments,at least you talk it over with your partner. I realized she never really loved me. Now I feel I dodged a bullet because she could have done that to me later on after being married or with kids. And you don’t want to be with a woman that can break it off like that with no feelings. However, I can’t help but feeling sad. I know I’ll never see her again and I’m ok with it. But what am i supposed to do now? I’ve felt again what it is to be in love with a woman and to receive that love back from her (even if it was fake, but felt real at the moment). How do I go back to MGTOW now? And how would I trust the next woman that comes onto my life? TL; DR: I was MGTOW, then i fell in love, which made me the happiest I’ve ever felt in my life, and now i don’t know if I should go back to MGTOW or try to trust another woman again.

Edit: writing this made me feel so good, thank you very much for the advice and support. Last night I went out on a date with a 9. Had fun and we ended up making out at the end. From now on, I will be dating 2-3 girls at a time and not seeing any of them more than once a week.

UPDATE: 2 weeks later

Thank you so much for the encouraging comments. I feel so embarrassed now thinking that i literally wanted to die 2 weeks ago. I felt so weak. But today it’s the complete opposite! I’m enjoying life and all the new free time i got. Lifting weights every day. Working on my craft. Now I have set a target to double my income by June next year. Today I learned some new techniques that I can immediately apply to my business and can move the needle. I realize i was like a drug addict, those brain chemicals! Well, now I’m obsessed with improving myself and I’ve been going out on the town a few times with some gold diggers just for fun. I’m back to my happy self again,