I don't know really how to start this post but as you can probably tell from the title i'm not doing very well. I'm a 21 (soon to be 22) year old guy. I'm writting this post because I really have no idea what to do at this point in my life and could use some serious advice.

To put things into context, I discovered this subreddit months ago. Been lurking ever since. After reading the things posted in this sub, it didn't take long to realise that I was a textbook case of everything that is wrong with the modern man. I don't want to waste your time telling you my live's story but I feel it's necessary to gloss over it just so you can grasp how much of a shit show my life is/is soon to be. I'm son to a single mother, father fucked off and most of my family is dead or lives half way across the planet. No close friends, no reliable acquaintances. As far as my "education", I basically fell for the "follow your dreams kid" meme and decided, in my infinite wisdom, to persue an arts degree (Fine Arts). As you can imagine, it's useless and I've wasted 4 years of my life. But hold on, don't stop reading, it gets EVEN better. For the longest time, since middle school I have been a huge weeaboo (part of the reason I made the wonderful decision of studying fine arts) and basically spent my teenage years shitposting in anime imageboards instead of forming meaningful relationships and conections. I had the whole package: figurines, posters and all the things that would make the kindest nun cringe in pain. To top it off, you might be surprised, I have severe social anxiety and the personality of unused sandpaper in public. It also doesn't help that I'm short and overweight.

As far as my experience with women, I've only dated one. We dated for a short period of time which resulted in nothing but fights and me breaking up with her. She then pulled the "I'm gonna kill myself" card and I fell for it. I then procided to try to be friends, which didn't end well. Yes, I'm very smart. Thankfully, she's out of my life for good.

The only thing I can think positively think of is that I don't have debt, since public education is "free" in my country (I'm from Spain) and that since I have 0 social life I've been able to save some money over the years. It's not much but I think I can avoid homelessness for approximately 9~10 months. In unemployed and I've only ever worked as a bartender and in food delivery. My only abilities are being bilingual and being able to somewhat draw/paint (meme degree had to give me something atleast).

As far as my mother, she's always looked after me. So don't think ill of her. She's just the typical case of "ran off with chad and got dumped".

I'm a big a mess and I hope you guys can give me some sound advice so that I can stop being such a massive fuck up. Sorry for the long post.

TL;DR Life's a mess, could use some advice.