After about 5 months of being with my girlfriend who still is about a 9.5, and to date still the hottest female I have ever seen in person, we were at a party on a trampoline talking.

She starts telling me how great I was, and all the things she loved about me and all of this. And when she got done talking, I felt this pressure to say some sappy shit to her about all the things I like about her. So I sit there for what feels like FOREVER, my mind reeling trying to think of something to say in response to this. Now she is super hot, and that was about it. I just kept thinking of how she was controlling, and mean to me when she felt like it, and she was kind of boring, didn't have interests, didn't care about mine, was a huge alcoholic, and all of this other bad shit. My mind went blank, and I could only think about how I pretty much enjoy having sex with her. But I couldn't just say that. So we say there through the cringe, as I never could formulate a proper response, she was really drunk and probably blacked out, and probably didnt even remember this moment the next day. This was almost 15 years ago.

I have been pretty red pulled ever since.

She was everything I thought I wanted, until I really got to know what it took to try to maintain her happiness; which was not actually possible.