Hello MGTOW,

I'm a red alert, nuclear sirens case. I've been a regular lurking for a few years and I think it's time I made my first post.

First and foremost I blame myself for not waking up sooner and I'm not looking for empathy. I'm 22, married and am trapped by the woman I'm married to with a child after she claimed to have infertility. Throughout this time I have accumulated 19k in debt from credit cards and loans because she has continuously made poor financial situations and couldn't assist with bills, rent, etc. Everytime she gets something resembling a job or a small amount of income she begins her "I'm going to move out and seperate from you" shit instead of paying back what she owes on bills or rent we "split".

Over the course of this relationship she has been in extreme mental decline from somehow getting raped 3-times. Addiction to nicotine and THC. Failure to get a proper job. She has been through every MLM there is because she's the most gullible person in the world when it comes to being sold on BS. There was a period for a year where she was a "sugar baby" when in reality she was whoring herself out for next to nothing at which point she began claiming she was going to have a "mixed baby" with another man for money. During this time and currently all of her issues and failures have been made out to be my fault. I have had to fight, beg and plead to get her to go to a psychologist, then put off seeing the psychiatrist she was sheduled for, for 6+ months so she wouldn't need to take medication. Today at this point she is taking multiple medications: anti-psychotics, bipolar stabilizers, anti-depressants etc. They're currently no longer working and refuses to call the psychiatrist yet again.

I was making 55k a year selling phones at Sprint as a sales manager and lost the job due to being unable to keep up with my quota from how depressed and battered I was by her. These kinds of corporate sales jobs are next to impossible to get again once you leave them. I haven't had a decent paying job since but I atleast had a job. She has recently guilt tripped me into quitting my security job with plenty of OT to go join this MLM bullshit and haven't had steady income outside of $2400 between the two of us. I'm currently back on the market for a job again because I was spending 300$ a month in gas alone for what essentially equated out to $7.50 an hour per person. She is back to the point where everything I do, say, or try to do for her is incorrect including things I don't do or don't even involve me. Everything is a just outburst, infront of the house infront of the neighbors, out in public or in private at home.

The child is mine, I had a DNA test done at the very beginning because I didn't trust a word out of her mouth.

I don't know what to do at this point anymore. I've come to y'all because I've seen full transformations come from this community. I'm depressed as hell and I'm trying to pull some form of inspiration or hope from here. If you could please share some advice.

Thank you guys.

UPDATE

EDIT: I'm getting a divorce.