First of all, maybe this will be a long read. I'll like to share it here because this is sub is the less judgemental. This is my story:
I studied in one of the STEM, got falsely accused nearly got expelled from college. A lot of anxiety, stress, bad grades, one year more because I had to skip tests, got arrested at school, a lot of trauma because of it well you name it. Fast forward 6 months later I was working with this girl, the sweetest, humble and hard working person at the moment. She did everything to have my trust and then I gave it to her. She was the unicorn a total NAWALT. I share my story (at the moment I thought everyone knew it so I said fuck it I will share my point of view). I started to get oneitis and told her that the only thing that can break me is a lie. Because my accuser lied in court and I was terrified of it. The point is that this NAWALT wasn't. She lied to me about her sexual history, she then told me that she was sexually abused when she was a kid by a woman. At her 20 supposedly was sexually abuse by a man ( a very sketchy story btw). 3 month later of starting as a FWB type of relationship we split up because she wanted to get married in the future and I told her not. Three days later I called her and make things up. Later I found that in those 3 days she was talking with a past FWB. My trust for her diminished greatly, and three months later I got her in another lie. I got furious and told her over text "you are causing a lot of anxiety in my life, go to your psychologist so he can reassure what you did was right" she replied: "ok well, "I'm going to disappear". And she did that she vanished. I was devasted I wrote back "come to my apartment to make things up" she never replied. 1 month later I was an in a bad spot because of it and I saw her at school and she just smiles at me like nothing has happened. 5 months later and I have been better. I have photos, documents, sex tapes, and things that if she accused me I will be in a better spot. But this thing in a form makes me anxious and living in the past. I want to delete all but I'm afraid of it. What should I do?