I realized I was an orbitor of 2 married women. One of them had the nerve to demand that I be "her only one." I told her how insane it was. She was fucking married and wanted me to "commit.".
I recently realized how full of shit these women were and cut both of them off. I kept them in my "reserves" as well, thinking I might get a fuck out of it.
But then I started thinking about the whole situation. These women had kids, and I didn't want to be the home wrecker. I didn't want to be the guy that the kids think of that destroyed the family.
Fuck it, I bailed on both of them. Ghosted them. Fuck it. I don't want the drama for the opportunity of getting my dick wet. I don't want to be the family destroyer no matter how fucked up they say their marriage is. Fuck it. I'm done.