I have no bloody clue what is going on but I lost it. I'm almost 26, been math/programming nerd all my life. Had one girlfriend 2 years ago for a month, had sex maybe 10 times on antidepressants(so I didn't even enjoy it, hardly got erection, couldn't come + she was loose), she was 6-7HB, and she is the reason why I found red pill.

For the last half year I did all the self improvement advice from trp, got probably to 13-14 body fat, did everything to improve my testestorone naturally, eat things like brasilian nuts and I hardly think about sex. I have almost never experienced something called morning wood and I'm just stunned when I hear things that guys think about sex all the time. Wank maybe two times a week, porn doesn't interest me that much. I'm not gay at all too.

Last week I went to the strip club for the first time. Some model looking girl HB9 gave me private dance, then I touched her all over and I hardly got up, didn't feel anything. Probably could have had sex with her if I paid her more money but didn't want to. The next day I felt some validation and confidence boast but it was all mental. Then I installed tinder got about 50 of matches went on a date but I didn't find her hot enough plus failed. These women offer nothing but their looks and demand some extraordinary things. They don't deserve my validation. I even started to get some looks on outside. Maybe if I had that sex, I'd enjoy it but...

I'm from eastern europe, things are not yet that bad there, but hey, they probably will be. I know true nature of women, they ignored me in the past, some of them looked at me with disgust. Why should I care about them now? I'm not even going to pump & dump, because I don't care about sex. Too many problems, risk of STD/kids and risk of starting enjoying sex.

I never wanted to have kids, family and sex without feeling was useless, so that's bonus for me.

I'm very happy person though, with a lot A LOT of self actualization goals, good job and a lot of career prospects. I want to achieve financial independence before 35 and maybe create company/do science related things in free time. Never been happier and I have daily dose of euphoria. Without any fucking overrated SEX or female validation. All my sexual mental needs I get from watching mgtow videos and reading manosphere.

Guess I'm natural ~_~

GO MGTOW GENTS

edit: Too clarify, I havent taken any meds for over a year now and I'm a happy person.