So me and my gf broke up in may. Im pretty much over it. She initiated it when she said she wanted a break. At the time i hadnt heard of mgtow or the red pill. So i simped out and begged and pleaded all the beta shit and can say im ashamed of the way i acted. Now though with the time and space i can see how i was being manipulated during and after the relationship.

I got with her after she broke up with her boyfriend of four years so i assume i was just a rebound. Really early on she was talking to me about marriage an d bank accounts. Not really knowing about these things yet i just kind of avoided the subject. That seemed to upset her. There were other times where i would tell her i was spending time with my brother which seemed to annoy her. We were together all the time.

Now im not gonna say i was a saint. I made mistakes that i wish i hadnt but after she wanted a break i stopped making as much time for her because i clearly wasnt a priority anymore. So we met up one day and had a good time. She started coming on to me and i turned her down because i told her i was gonna have lunch with my brother. That seemed to piss her off. Anyway about a month later we met up for lunch and she told me she was talking to some guy from tinder for a month so she was lying to me.

Guess im just trying to understand that she wasnt a NAWALT despite all the love bombing. She put all the blame on me. Thanks to anybody who reads and responds.