I need to let it out, the dopamine rush is killing me. I went out with a lady I have know for a few years, and I have not felt so high in probably 10-15 years. It was one of the most romantic nights I have ever had, no sex, just cuddles (outdoor), sweet kisses, and cute talks. I thought I had learned how to master my feelings and be a fucking rational machine, but reason this time has gone.

I know she is a typical AWALT, I know she is way too young for me (16 years younger is a lot), I know she will be hitting the wall, I know she will make me suffer, I know she will make me cry, I know that now that she is back home for a couple of weeks she will fuck half of her town... yet, 3 days of no sleep and barely eating are a thing.

Please help me out of this shit. Wake me up from this dream soon to be a nightmare.