So, I practically consider myself of the MGTOW philosophy, in so far that I am not interested in relationships right now, or probably ever. However, there's a catch. This one girl (who I dated in highschool) is always in my thoughts. "The One," as they say. The worst part is that we had a super bad break up, but have since become friends again. Apparently we both spent like a year or two thinking about each other after that, only to find out the other was doing it too when we reconciled Also, she has a boyfriend now, too. I can only wonder what her thoughts are. We go to the gym together though, so I'm not sure what to do at this point. All of the past's incredibly powerful feelings have come back and slapped me across the face. I generally dislike being in relationships, as well as female company in general, but I've never been happier than when I was/am with her. I don't get along with anyone else like I do with her. It's like we were made for each other, soulmates, even. She's not even objectively that pretty, but I consider her the most beautiful person ever. That sort of stuff. Total rose-colored lenses, or so I thought, until we started spending time with each other again, cause everything feels just like it was back then. I'm not sure if nostalgia is THAT powerful. I'm in a super great spot in my life right now, except for this one aspect that ebbs away at me from my core. 20 (about to be 21 on the 30th) if that matters.

TL;DR: I'd offer one, but it's kinda complicated. In short, it's Oneitus lol