i'm willing to bet a high percentage of young boys have their first sexual experiences out of peer pressure. why? because if you're a socially literate male, you're fucking weird if you don't fuck. My first sexual experiences weren't of my own volition. they were of my girly friends. I was afraid of sex. I was afraid of being judged. I didn't want to fuck you in your backyard, but you kept pushing me to. I didn't want to rub your tits next to that firepit. but you stripped in front of 15 of our friends and put them in my hands. & I certainly didn't want to take your cherry. I didn't feel right. You called your mom, got picked up, and told everyone I was a loser that couldn't get it up; But the truth is, I didn't want your first sexual experience to be with someone like me. I was a drunk, and a druggy, and I didn't fucking love you.

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but because I never took you, you destroyed my reputation as a male. and for months, I was confronted about it, by everyone I knew. for the last 9 years, I've thought about it... it's shaped me. it's made me feel weak, shy, weird, freakish.

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I'm sick and tired of hearing about #metoo
What about us? What about all the times women have chipped away, or destroyed the very image I hold of MY SELF?