Been reading some incel posts. I learned about them on this sub-Reddit and all the hate they got made my inquisitive mind go... maybe I'll check them out before I take these peoples' word for it. I did, read one of the stickied posts, kicked right in the feels. Anyways did their top stuff and realized these guys manage to be rather hilarious (at least for dudes who are on the verge of killing themselves).

Anyways as I've grown older I've definitely come face to face with the black pill more often and once the delusion of first love and similar stuff wears off you sometimes try it.

What I realized was I'd never been someone's number 1. Now maybe this isn't a surprise for anyone but at least for me it came as one. Now l've been good looking, good dick, intelligent, entertaining, acceptable height, strong, very atheletic and generally a known figure in my social circles. Yet I'd been no ones number one. Not even the girls that keeps in contact with me over years. I mean I even recently got asked in a bar by a very cute young girl (table of 5 dudes around her all night) when I'm done with my boyfriend we get together because I like you. Never been number one. I realized I never will.

You can't win. Blackpill is brutal. I didn't win the genetic lottery but I didn't lose anywhere, in fact I rolled well in pretty much every area and I still can't win. I really feel for the incels whether they lost in just one department or in multiple.