I did something stupid.

I have this infatuation with this cashier girl working at a food stall nearby my house. I would order from her counter at least once a week to strike up a conversation with her.

I tried to follow the mgtow lifestyle as strict as possible but my inner voice just tells me 'she is different'.

Today, she saw me and totally avoided me, acting like I was not there at all. I probably gave her a desperate vibes.

I am stupid, I learnt my mistake. Today is the last time I will be a beta male.