So I went out 2 nights ago, a girl who’s attracted to me invited me out with her friends. I already knew you shouldn’t hang out with her friends yet unless your good with conversation skills which I was so I said no problem she wants to see if her friends approve of me, okay I didn’t care I knew they will but my mind Set is will I approve of them. They did approve of me, by how I kept getting invited one place to another. Even after the girl that invited me out left I stood to hang out with her brother.

So being a chad is the worst when doing semen retention. It’s almost your pressured to have sex, I mean I’m naturally a sexual person I’m not going to change that because of semen retention. So I unconsciously sexualize a lot of my conversation without even realizing it due to me working on my seduction and masculinity while on semen retention. But since I have discovered a lot in life I’m not into just having sex it literally does nothing to me but make me feel more lonely I don’t fuck with pump and dump or anything and it can be due to me focus on my goals so much I don’t like that draining feeling. I’m just into hanging out & having a good time not really into sex. Maybe when I’m in a better place successfully I would be into it and let lose. The confusing part is as I discovered the red pill and stuff, I rather be seen a sexual guy than non sexual. So idc about flirting or being sexual with a girl I’m never going to have sex with a girl if I don’t really want too just because she wants too. She most likely thinking what’s wrong with me? And see me more like a challenge. So I mean I’m just into chilling right now. I’m not ready to give myself to any women. I don’t like the concept of a girl saying she had me especially if I think she not worthy. I think no women is, but I’m in the process of discovering is it because I’m still working on insecurities or is it because of past bad experiences. In the mean time if a girl ends up being so straight up and says let’s have sex, I’ll play it off like I don’t think Your worthy of having me. You have to earn it or just tell them I’m practicing celibacy at the moment and I don’t think your a girl that can change my beliefs on that. Which will keep her chasing but the only thing is I want her chasing me to hang out with her not really sex.

Btw this is the level you hit when you do semen retention for a while and find self love. I just starting to have a abundance mindset because I’m just obsessed with my purpose. Nobody can ever make me happy - family, friends, women. I live and die for my purposes.