just found out about TRP a few weeks agao and marriedredpill perhaps not even 2 hours ago.

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background - last few months have been draining on us both. finances are hard, paying off debt, shes starting a business (out of the house) im working 50+ hours, depending on the weekend. we've not had sex in a year. been back and forth about open relationship, about her being asexual, ect ect - back and forth and im so tired of it all. i was not not this beta when we met. i had realized my ways and changed. we met, things were great, sex, fun, adventures.... i started to slip, little by little....now i am somehow full on Beta....fuck me have i got a road ahead.

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i get a text on wednesday that asks me to "look into LAT - living apart together. and tell her what i think"

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basically, i say its fucking dumb. (well, i say if its done for the right reasons, sure, otherwise=dumb) married = living together (in my book at least) go over why she wants this. she gives a bunch of reasons which really all contradict each other. the bottom line as far as I CAN TELL is she is depressed, feels trapped, has no steady source of income, no car (we only have 1 and i work 6-7 days a week), and says since we hardly see each other and dont have sex we should live apart as roomies anyhow.

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after back and forth into the night i got tired and said ok. i leave Friday for house sittin, ill pack my bags and that will be the end of it.

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after a bit more talking i find out she would get rid of 2 of our dogs and 2 of our cats if i left, so i said fuck that then you leave, get a job, a car, a full time job and an apartment. come visit them on weekends if you want, im not giving away my dogs, i love them and made a commitment. that means when times are hard and when they are not.

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fast forward Friday night i left for work, we hugged, said goodbye see you monday. wont be home until monday afternoon/night. i usually see a future pretty clear, and im foggy on mine now.

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any help, guidance, or otherwise i would really appreciate it.

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1- i only just found out about marriedRP from TRP, so i havent really tackled the side bar yet, but its next.

2-ive got the shit test encyclopedia tab right next to this one and plan to get to make a dent in that this weekend

3-i started working out again at least 2 weeks ago, daily, so im back into my morning routine - body feels great. my diet has remained pretty onpointe aside from alcohol, which ..... is gonna go. starting tonight. im also back on my supplement train.

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