Was taken down from MarriedRedPill, repost. Thanks to all that answered there. My one puke post...

This has taken me a while to write. I feel like I need to get my story out there, although I'm sure to many of you it will be nothing new.

I had been together with my wife for 15 years, married for 10. Have a 3 year old son. I (33) am a college teacher, good salary, have become muscular in the past 18 months and am down to about 12% body fat, and take care of my apprearence. My soon to be ex-wife (31) has lost about 25 pounds in the last year, and is probably a solid 7 on a good day. She works as a manager in a textile company. We had just bought a house last october, were planning our 2nd child and wanted to start trying in January. She had a minor health issue (low vitamine D) and was told to take suppliments and wait 8 weeks.

I started noticing something wrong in February, but ignored it like an idiot. I had to pull long hours in January and February, but was still paying attention to her and we even went away on a mini trip at the end of February. I caught her in a lie at the end of March, and after a lot of pushing got her to reveal that she was having an affair with a guy that works for her. He has a wife and a kid, as well as 2 stepkids. He is about 6 years older, drives a flash car and has a big house (probably shady af, since he earns less than what my wife makes, which wouldn't be enough to pay for all of that...)

A day after I found out, she told me she was leaving me for him, took off her wedding rings, and left it at that. I was in complete shock, but somewhere deep down thought it might work out in the end....(blue pill as fuck). However, I had the idea of checking chatlogs. Saw all the things she was saying about me, and how much they were fucking in random places (cars, hotels etc). This from the woman who I thought didn't have a good sex drive, just wasn't that into it etc. I had been making progress the past year, and she was becoming more interested, but little did I know she was probably thinking of him. Also, I suspect she fucked him one time right before she came home and fucked me....

Anyway, I stayed at home with our kid most of the 2 following months, while she went out and fucked the dude whenever she wanted. I felt trapped, didnt want to lose my son or get divorce raped, and didn't know what to do. She also took our son to see him after about 5 weeks, even though I begged her not to. Probably the lowest point of my life. I found tinder, and started hooking up with someone to run away from my problems (low SMV).

As of right now, she has more or lessed move into here new place, and we have decided to raise our son 50/50. I am going to get to keep the house and most of the things in it (which is a big plus), she just wanted to get out as soon as possible. I am starting to get my shit together, am thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life and how I am going to work on myself, and raise my son as best I can. Having just typed everything out, I realise how pathetic I really am. I thought I was making progress, had taken the red pill and was leading my family in life. Now, I realise that although I made progress, I must be really fucking bad for something like this to happen. To be honest, everything is such a mess and I feel so pathetic I don't know how to start getting better.....

I hope this was coherent, to be honest I didn't describe half the shit that happened, but if anyone has questions (or advice) let me know.

tldr; Got cheated on by partner of 15 years, feel pathetic