I have always swore against datingapps after seeing other men and myself being emotionally burned there. It's just brutal and especially if you're on the spectrum like me.

((ADD)i'm considered autistic but in my case i actually crave friendships and relationships and i'm also an HSP which really can be a double edged sword as i feel other's emotions aswell) So i gave up and just focused on meeting women irl via friends and hobbies, as a Musician i am part of 2 music ensembles. But only 1 of those has women around my age (i'm 22) but as time went by and getting to know them and being friends i know just none of these girls have any romantic interest towards me (which is okay i'd never force anyone to love me as i want it to be genuine) besides those ensembles i only have 2 good friends and i know their friends kinda well, but there are also no real romantic possibilities so i feel kinda stuck...

when i'm alone at home i feel really depressed about this and i start to believe there might be something wrong with me as no woman ever concidered me in a romantic way, so i don't really have irl (options) anymore and there where moments i just tried to deal with the fact i'm going to die alone, because i refuse to use datingapps as they are emotionally damaging... but then i saw an ad about a datingapp for neurodivergent people i though that might be worth a try to meet new women, and that there might be less shallow women (people in general) then neurotypical as on regular apps.

I just don't know anymore i want a soulmate who is monogamous (rare these days) and share our lives with who i can explore our hobbies and interests while being cuddly and romantic. But i feel no woman sees me in that way and honestly i feel like i'm out of options and just deal with the fact i won't ever get that while everyone i know can get someone if they really wanted or are in a relationship already... i know no way out and some advice is welcome 🍀🫂