Just backstory, at 19 I lost my kidneys. Went on dialysis. Had two transplants. Got an English Degree late in life. Worked at a prison in 2018. Thanksgiving 2020, my transplant medications caused cancer. I lost my last transplant from the chemo. The chemo made the cancer grow to the size of a heart. They took it out, along with half of my colon and the transplant. I'm on dialysis. Married with three kids. I have a great, supportive wife but I just feel useless. This English degree feels useless considering I have a corrections background. My mind is not healthy. I want to work, but the skills for remote work just seems impossible because of my work history. I'm almost 40 and suppose to be at my peak, and life is really aggravating.
Just looking for some advice, fellas. If any. I'm not suicidal. Just need a vacation, or some direction.