I am troubled and afraid.

I posted this somewhere else as a comment, but I’m wondering if anyone else feels the same. Don’t talk to anyone and no one talk to me in public. This includes all settings. I don’t go in public to speak to someone or be spoken to. It’s rude, uninvited and potentially dangerous to me. I’m not being sarcastic. This is literally the reason why I’m scared of people. It’s easier being alone. Though I’m miserable, I’ll just keep to myself and retire to my mountain town. Even if I met someone I’m interested in, trying to create any sort of relationship is disrespectful, how dare I put my feelings above someone else’s, they didn’t go out in public to meet me or speak with me, why should I bother them. It’s selfish of me. I’m so scared. I’m actually terrified. I complimented someone the other day for the first time in months and felt so ashamed and creepy that I don’t think I could do that again. Though I think I like her.

(Removed irrelevant part)I’m sorry I truly am. (Next part is referring to the women from the tik tok who tells a man to not approach her) The women in the mentioned video most definitely had a bad in-counter and her reaction could of been completely justified but we just don’t know. The person approaching her could of been a bad person or simple returning her lost bag or something but we just don’t know. In an event like that if she truly lost her belongings, just return it to the store counter. It’s safer and less intrusive that way, then nether party gets involved with each other and no interaction occurred. Everyone would just leave everyone alone and be at peace. No one wants to interact with anyone. Stay safe, I care for you all and I worry so much for everyone. It’ll probably be the death of me. (The rest is not part of the comment) I might be losing my mind, I’m not suicidal. I have hope that my life will get better, though the hope is minimal. My goal of retiring to a mountain town with cats/dogs, a bunch of cars to fix and my future adopted kids keeps me going. I also have a big family and I’m in the military so i have lots of people who count on me for survival. I just want to be held and feel loved. I fear there is no love left in this world and I may be one of the few who would sacrifice myself to save someone who hates me just for being a man. I’m not more important than anyone else, I like simple things. My heart is to big, I rescue cats and I repair cars, I take care of my friends when in need, and I’m deserted when I am in need, but that’s okay, I didn’t help these cats because I wanted them to love me, though some do, I didn’t help my friends because I wanted them to help me, though most don’t. I’m not perfect and I’ve screwed up in the past, we all have, I’m probably a slim ball. I hate all lying, assumptions and loud noises. I just want to be happy, but in todays world there is no being happy. At least that’s how it feels. Thank you for letting me vent. “I think I need a hug” Donkey