Everywhere I look these days the world is telling me I don't matter. Society does not give a shit if I'm homeless. Does not give a shit if I have mental health issues. Does not give a shit if I'm down on myself. Everywhere I turn, the world tells me that the future is female, that girls are the key to the success of the world. How do I tell my 5 year old son that? That the world he is growing up in is ready to label him every negative possibility under the sun before he's even had a chance? That simply because he was born with a penis, he's going to have to take a back seat to girls, so that they have a chance? He doesn't know, or understand. I do. The world is constantly telling me I'm wrong, I have to be on the lookout for myself, to take care not to upset or hinder the freedom or feelings of others. That at any moment I may give in to my inner uncontrollable urges to rape and murder and cause someone to feel uncomfortable. I'm under so much stress watching out for my fucking self that I can barely think these days. I wondered if I was maybe having mental health issues, so I went to visit the mindcheck website and found that it's meant for peoples aged to 24. I'm too old to matter, I guess. If I decided I need to find a shelter to stay at or some sort of temporary housing, I won't find anywhere to go here since everything is for females. I guess to the streets it is if I have to. Or just out, I guess. No matter what I do, I'm wrong. I can't even show the slightest degree of partisanship or understanding of a male issue today without being branded or hated, or just being flat out wrong. I'm unloved and useless to society unless I'm at war or fixing something. Otherwise, shut the fuck up. The leader of my country proudly announced today on Twitter that the future is girls. Great. I guess I'll inform my son of that in the morning. Sorry my boy, you're fucked, sign up for the army and just go be disposable as we all seem to be.

Fuck it I don't know. Wish someone cared.

Sorry.