I’m on the edge

SmartAdhesiveness · 2019-05-14T02:38:27+00:00

First, call the suicide prevention hotline, 1-800-273-8255. You deserve help.

Second, remember this is a big world. You may not have found your group yet, but they are out there. Don’t lose hope.

Third, if you can I recommend you find a place to lift weights. This will help you in so many ways.

Exercise immediately lifts your mood.
Seeing your body get stronger will give you a sense of accomplishment and pride.
Physical strength will also change the way people think about you.

You were put on this earth for a reason.

hairguythrowaway4171 · 2019-05-14T03:44:21+00:00

Do not turn to substances, no matter what you do.

Exercise and drink water.

Don't try to fit into a stereotype other people provide. Be your own stereotype.

Be patient.

I believe in you, PM me if you'd like

JadieNL · 2019-05-14T04:12:04+00:00

Hey dude, i can understand feeling that you dont fit in anywhere, feel it my self often enough. But ive found that talking generally helps.

If you want to talk about it let us know, we care. If you dont belive me thats fine, but im a random stranger on the Internet probably on the other side of the planet that has no connection to you what so ever, and im still attempting to reach out.

Stay strong and take good care, pm's are always welcome, from you or others, am always willing to help.

Free_kittens2468 · 2019-05-14T05:07:10+00:00

I'm terrible with advice, but I just wanna say your not alone, and you can get through this. You already sound like a great person with a good life ahead of them don't waste it. Please for all out sake, and yours.

goodmod · 2019-05-14T03:06:56+00:00

Since you're on reddit already, I'd recommend a visit to r/SuicideWatch.

Once you're out of immediate danger, see a doctor or a mental health support group. Google should turn up someone who can help.

I've sometimes felt suicidal myself, but when I took the fright steps my life became much, much better. Yours can too, so don't give up!

NyxionYT · 2019-05-14T07:57:52+00:00

Get some dumb-bells and get into training. Jogging too.

Check this out:
https://youtu.be/VWiAxpAiXl0

Read some Jordan Peterson. Start planning your future, and work hard at school. Every single person you know at school now will no longer be in your life once you leave school, so don't sweat that stuff. Focus on yourself.

Stay away from booze and weed. Don't join any sort of gang. Figure out what you want to do in life, and aim for it. Break up your dreams into small daily and weekly goals, and pursue them.

I'm 34, which probably seems really old to you. And it kinda is I suppose. I've been dealing with these sorts of feelings the majority of my life. And it's because I never took a pro-active approach to solving it. Don't do what I did for the majority of my life, don't bottle it up. Try out things to solve it. If something doesn't work, start again.

Read books constantly too.

DignifiedAlpaca · 2019-05-14T06:09:03+00:00

First off, I agree with the others here who are suggesting that you reach out to some kind of a suicide prevention support group, even if it is something on the internet. It's probably not a good idea to try to deal with something as serious as this completely on your own.

That being said though, even though I am not a therapist and obviously can't say for sure what is the best possible way to fix your situation, I do have a suggestion.

There was something you said that caught my attention:

But I can’t go anywhere without being looked at, and eyes. I always feel like I have a phantom audience, I’m always getting teased, made fun of by kids at school and my own family.

Based off of my own personal experiences in life, it sounds to me like the reason you feel like you are being watched by everyone is because you are worried that someone might try making fun of you, and you don't have a very good way of fighting back against them to defend yourself. In the same way that countries must have a strong military ready to defend themselves in case they get attacked, it is useful for people to know how to argue effectively with other people so that they will be able to defend themselves in case other people "attack" them with words.

If you think that might be the issue you are having, I would recommend reading on the internet about logic and how to argue. Also, maybe try watching videos on YouTube of people debating and even videos of stand-up comedians dealing with hecklers at their shows to see examples of how to respond quickly to people who are trying to give you a hard time.

You might also want to search online about how to be assertive. Not sure if that is an issue you are having, but it might be something that could be helpful.

https://m.wikihow.com/Be-a-Good-Debater

NyxionYT · 2019-05-14T12:07:15+00:00

Thank you, I’ll check it out.

mgtowolf · 2019-05-14T20:48:20+00:00

Real talk. All these people that seem "cool" and badass now, will either be dead or in jail in ten years. Keep up your schooling, keep doing you, and you will get the fuck out of that place. The US is a big place, let alone the world, when you are older, and have your head on straight, you will go places.

omegaphallic · 2019-05-15T01:39:55+00:00

You will be having the last laugh. When you end up going to a top rated university and start making good money because you know how to use proper English while the assholes who bully you are working at a liquor store at best, you will have the last laugh and plenty of women who will want to be with a well off guy who makes great money.

Just look at Wayne Brady, he speaks well, you can understand him, and he is extremely successful.

And go on a low carb diet fir your weight.

You are a winner in the making, I can tell these things, so please don't commit suicide, the world will be your oyster after university.

Nolafaranono · 2019-05-15T12:32:56+00:00

Dude, of you need someone to talk to.my inbox is always open. Don't do it, there are so many people that it'll affect, your family, friends ect. PM me, we can chat if you want.

pringles817 · 2019-05-15T13:23:15+00:00

As a guy, not much older than you, who's recovering from similar problems at the moment, the best thing I can say is that it's always too early to give up. Keep pushing on, even if it doesn't feel worthwhile. You'll find hope as long as you keep looking for it.

Title	I’m on the edge
Author	NyxionYT
Upvotes	19
Comments	24
Date	May 14, 2019 2:21 AM UTC (7 years ago)
Subreddit	Posted in /r/MensRights
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