I can't I can't I am losing my shit I want to Punch my arm into glass until I bleed all over the place. My chest feel heavy and I feel tears in my throat and they are no where near my eyes. Fuck fuck fuck , I have failed at everything, I am getting overwhelmed and I can't deal with this anymore, time I running out . Everyone who left me was right I am a fucking failure, I don't know what to do I genuinely don't know what to do . I am tried of feeling so little and useless. I am about to lose it, please God have mercy on me , I know I did so many wrong things , made do many wrong choices , but please this is my first time living, nobody told me what I need or needn't to do. I want to give you context but I don't know where to start or how to end it. Break up ,5 years ago , still didn't move, can't build connections, friendless , jobless, no work experience even tho I begged to work for free. I live in a prison air country where boomers keep pushing law that anal fuck us "youth". Nobody even including my family takes me seriously. I have nobody to ask what I need to do and I don't know what I need to do, and everytime I do something it is 100x harder for me for some reason , and every time I fucking succeed despite all odds, some weird shenanigans happen that block me from progressing. Please help a brother out even with a kind word. I wish I could hurt myself but even that isn't an option for me