Me and my ex have been going through separation.

I have my concerns with emotional abuse and the visitation of the kids at her place is not a safe environment for me. I brought it up last night which didn’t exactly end well with regards to visitation. I think I need to get the courts involved but don’t have the means to do so (most attorneys I’ve spoken to are asking around 4k-5k retainer)

I’m suffering from PTSD it seems as a result of the relationship and appear to be hyper-vigilant.

What tools would you use to navigate or combat a situation such as this? I feel like I’m in a position to lose access to my children and trying to get what it is I need/want is only met with doubling down.

I don’t know what else to do currently; i fee like the more I do the more I make the situation worse.