Crosspost "My ex-wife brutally raped me." from /r/TrueOffMyChest:

She waited until I was completely intoxicated.

I could barely keep my eyes open and I don't usually if ever, drink at all.

I felt like I was slipping in and out of consciousness. All my strength left my body and I could barely move.

In an almost unconscious state, I laid next to her sister's friend struggling to retain consciousness.

Then my ex steps into the room, lifts me up and whisks me away.

Thinking she was helping me, I felt initially taken care of...but I was terribly mistaken of her intentions.

She took me back to our bedroom and grabbed me by the jaw, digging her nails into my cheeks asking me "did you touch her???" with a jealous rage.

As she had her nails dug into my skin, I kept passing in and out of consciousness.

She kept egging me on to drink and I repeatedly told her i never drink before the whole ordeal.

She wasn't a small woman either. She was 5"10 and well built.

As I passed out again, I regained consciouness to find out she had taken my pants off.

I struggled and tried to push her off of me, but she pinned down my wrists really hard and I couldn't get her off of me.

I told her:

Stop

Please stop.

Get off.

No.

No. Get off.

As I resisted, she used more force to subdue me.

At this point, she had me pinned down completely and called me names for being unable to repel her as I struggled to stay conscious.

She now removed my undies and intentionally humiliated me by sticking her finger/s in my butt.

And then she mocked me for it with a condescending tone "you like that"

As she continued to molest me and try to rob me of my dignity...

I repeated to her No. STOP. GET OFF. No stop !!

I said it nearly 20 to 30 times and it was clear she didn't care.

She mounts me while pinning me down as I again struggle to remove her off of me but I literally had no strength left in my body and I could do nothing.

She pinned my wrists down so hard that I was bruised the next day.

She pinned me down so hard that I could do nothing but let her get her way.

I was slipping often in and out of consciousness at that point.

And I could not stop her from making me orgasm.

When I orgasmed, I passed out. Everything went black and I don't know what happened after.

I don't know if she further humiliated me in front of her sister or friend by exposing my nude body.

I don't know what happened at all after to this day.

The next morning I came to again after blacking out.

I confronted her and said: "you raped me".

She laughed in my face and said: "who's going to believe you?"

Then escalated with "I own you".

I was upset but defeated by her words.

She was right.

Who will believe me?

Her mother? Not a chance.

Her family? No way.

The police? They would probably laugh in my face and mock me.

No one at all, ever, would believe me.

It was a physically and psychologically a brutal rape.

She did it to crush my spirit and make me feel less than I am.

She forcefully removed clothes to show me what she could do to me when I least expect it.

She had her way with me and had zero care to the fact that I might have had alcohol poisoning.

She didn't care about the fact that she violated my trust.

She got what she wanted and she escaped with it.

But I know better.

I forgave her.

I forgave her because I am a better person. I forgave her because she has no hold over me.

She can molest my body but nothing she will ever do will ever break my spirit.

I never drank again after that night.

And to this day, I have no idea what happened after I blacked out.

I just needed this off my chest.

Posted by Light_Bringer333 | 31 July 2019 | Link