I was redpill she was a party girl in college. We met at a concert and hooked up immediately. What ensued for the next to years was crazy turmoil and rollercoaster of emotion. We finally said our good byes yesterday. Never thought this day would come but I feel very empty. A week ago she reminded me of her past and who she was, I could barely stand to be around her. But after last night and saying our farewells she just wanted to be loved and to love like most people. Part of me thinks if she just kept quiet about everything I would’ve happily taken her in and we’d be married or sumn. But maybe fate had it so I made her realize and encourage her to treat her trauma. Nonetheless redpill is inhumane and it caused me mass paranoia, as well as hurt this girl. She was v grateful of our time together and the fact that I helped her heal and grow as she is in therapy now. I’ve been crying a lot over it usually. Wish it wasn’t like this, but I just couldn’t see past it. Now I’m just alone again with nobody special. Made her my world for those two years and I was hers. This is 1 of those tragedies of life I guess. Kinda lost in the fog rn, just got my booster shot. Feel debilitated.