I really thought I was trans and it turns out I'm not. It explains why there are so many mtfs compared to ftms. It's a defense mechanism. I felt unloved and unwanted always as a male. I was constantly discriminated against. So I developed this sick fantasy to want be a woman so I can be loved. That's how fucked up today's society is. There are men and boys out there who fall into these traps. Type in tg recovery. I was close to taking hormones