I'm seeking on advice on a tricky situation I was put in with my friend(18female) who got extremely close to me(18male). I'm wondering what I should do with this girl as I was so happy being single before, and my old best mate dated her before me. He knew how I felt though so kinda messed up there. I'm not trying to have what happened in my last relationship again of my partner running to her ex all the time, or just plain cheating in me. And it feels like this is gonna happen again. What should I do purple pillers?

Here's some back story:

I'm a senior in high school currently, and at the start of the year I was really interested in this girl. She was really close, like a best friend to me. At the time however, I wasn't confident in myself and didn't make a move on her. I get more confident in myself as I work out more because I was losing a lot of weight. I told my whole friend group I was interested in this girl. My male best homie then starts talking to her, even though he knows how I feel.

One thing leads to another, he lays down the pipe in the girl I was interested in. Then later cheats on her, I don't give a shit bout what happened after they slept together though. It hurt a lot because I thought that was part of bro code to never do that to your boys. I stopped really talking to him, not just for this though. This was just the straw that really broke the camels back.

I'm sad but I pursue other girls, no point in wasting over a girl who isn't interested in me. Met a girl at my work, but that didn't work cuz we just didn't connect. Then I met a different girl at work who had the same interests as me, and she was a real stud. I shoot my shot but sadly I have poor vision and it misses. I get good ol' tinder, meet a girl who later abuses me verbally. I didn't know boundaries though and was incredibly needy so I don't blame her much for the things she did. Got cheated on, re-downloaded tinder, and then I proceeded to sleep with 4 different woman. I got bored of that, causing me to uninstall the app. I work out hard as fuck to get jacked, considering steroids at this point but that's a different story.

I talk to the girl again because she thought I was really sad over the break up, I was but these things happen. We then get even closer after he cheats on her, probably because she thought I was relatable because I also got cheated on. We hang out even more and she starts flirting, I don't notice though because to be frank I'm not the smartest and it was horrid flirting. We go hiking and she tells me she has feelings for me. Ooo yippee I won right? Not really, I was really happy being single. I didn't wanna date again for a wonderful a long while. I tell her that I do like her, but need to figure out who I truly am. She understands and hugs me, and says she's okay with taking our time. Now I didn't say I wanted to take my time, so this left me a bit confused.

Then this virus hits hard, I can't go on dates to feel how this will be. We text back and forth, I flirt but it doesn't seem like she's interested so I stop. Cut my losses and re-download tinder again. She then asks me to meet up with her, she asks me to this event so I accept. We go on a date and then a hangout spot with a nice view. We joke and listen to music. It was really nice. Then I go to kiss her and she moves back, likeee fucckk. I ask if I can kiss her, and she says she isn't sure because that's unexpected. She puts on some romantic music, and waits for me to kiss her for probably 20 mind after this. I go for it to a Frank Ocean song and it was a really nice kiss. I pull a big bozo move and ask her if we'll ever tell a friend of ours if we are dating, since she asked. She says we aren't dating, she is right though I just got ahead of myself. I thought dating was going on dates but I guess not. We make out later in the night, and she tells me she really likes me.

We go home and I walk her to her door, she just runs to me as I'm telling a joke and hugs me. I stop blabbering and I hug her, then I kiss her. We said our goodbyes. So that's it, and now I'm wondering what I should probably do.