Mission: To stay faithful to my family, future wife and to God, by avoiding porn, masturbation and only interacting sexually with my wife

Stats:

Age: 29 Height: 5’8 / 173cm Weight: 155lbs 71kg Bodyfat %: 15% (aiming for 12%) Marital Status: Engaged (getting married in October), Relationships: Gf, 2 kids (4 yr old boy and 1 yr old girl)

Objectives:

Mental/Emotional: Getting more involved with the church and deeper understanding of scripture. I spent a lot of time away from the church and doing immoral things with women that were not my gf. I deeply ashamed of that and am improving everyday with the help of No Fap and Porn Free

Spiritual: Assurance of Salvation: 7/10 (slowly improving from 2/10 last year) Quiet Time/Devotional: 8/10 Bible Study: 6/10 Scripture Memory: 5/10 Prayer: 9/10 Evangelism: 7/10 Fellowship: 8/10

Spiritual : Deepen my understanding of Scripture and continue to escalate my relationship with God

Physical: Main and improve a 6 pack, run 10km in less than 50 minutes

Temptations: Women, particularly married women and innocent women (above 18)

Note:

I posted previously in here and the immediate reaction was resistance because of my post history. I have had a few discussions with people on here and I understand that many on here disagree with my posts- I just want to say that I am constantly praying on it and I don’t think that I am betraying my wife, family or God by doing these. If at any stage I think I am am, I make a solemn promise that I will stop. Until then, it genuinely helps me from staying away from other women, sex with my fiancé (until we are married in October), masturbation and porn.

I am tough and can deal with the inevitable criticism that I will get here (I hope the discussions will make me and you better people) , but please try and be respectful as it’s hard to discuss with anyone who knee-jerkingly calls me disgusting or evil.