Hi, everyone! I’m 25 and I’m going through my journey of finding my faith and wanting to better myself as a woman. I’ve been celibate from sex for about three years now. That part was really easy for me. There’s only been two people I’ve had sex with and I’m definitely okay with that. My struggle is beyond sex and more so with porn addiction. I had to take a step back and realize how much it’s affecting me. It’s been a problem ever since I was introduced to it at an extremely young age. It also didn’t help I was being sexually abused my early teen years. I don’t find it appealing, and feel incredibly disgusted with myself after. it feels like my brain can make normal situations, actions, etc, sexual. I know a lot of things are overly sexualized when it comes to social media and everything around me.

I’m working towards becoming baptized as a catholic and doing a lot of research, I see how pornography and masturbation is heavily frowned upon. At first it scared me. It’s considered a mortal sin and I never would have thought that until I did a lot of research. That’s one reason on why I want to abstain from anything sexual. Another is I don’t want to ruin my perception of sex (although, I feel like it has been slightly) for my future partner. I would really appreciate some advice from women who have also struggled with porn addiction and abstaining from anything sexual.