I've been reading redpill since late 2016. I initially came here for the identity politics after realizing how much of a crock of shit feminism is. I've been an avid reader ever since.

I'm extremely frustrated because I barely get laid and when I do it usually sucks. I have zero game. I live on my own, I make a little over 40,000 a year, not much, but im way too stupid for school and have dropped out twice and im not going back. I work in a factory, I work 2-10 pm which helps me never get laid because the only day I can do anything is saturday, I go see my family sunday.

I'm skinny and ugly all of my clothes are old and tattered because I work in a factory and live on my own. The town i live in has a very preppy college bar scene, I dont fit in at all. I could move to the city but that will take about a year and would be extremely inconvenient for work, it would also set me back on buying a house which I want to do in the next few years, I have dreams of becoming a landlord. I have a broken nose i need to get fixed, I own 2000 on my car that looks decent on the outside but is a total pos. As soon as thats paid off I need a new car which is more debt. Between school debts, credit card debts, and other random shit, I'm about 20,000 in debt. I started working out back in january but have been very inconsistent, im working on becoming more disciplined with that and intend on getting more serious asap.

I never meet anyone at bars, and when I do it never goes anywhere. When I get matches on dating apps, they either dont respond or stop talking after a few days, even if the convo is interesting. I'm sure they dont log on for a few days and have a huge inbox.

I dont think I come off as depressed or not confident either. I've fixed my posture and walk with my head high but still dont get anything. I live in an area with predominantly ugly and obese women, and the people who aren't locals who dont live here fuck all the rich college chads.

I feel hopeless. I want to build a decent computer for about $500 and start producing drum n bass music as my passion but can't even do that. Today I decided that by the end of the summer I'm going to buy a bunch of plain black t shirts and a few nice pairs of denim, a non-descript chain and some new shoes and start dressing like im fresh, even if it isn't super fancy. I already have a bunch of nice hats and good cologne.

This is just a vent. I'm awful with women. My game is shit. I'm pretty responsible but ugly and my life isn't that interesting. I'm pretty stuck in it because of debt and stupid mistakes. Hot ass women sometimes act like they are offended by my presence. The last girl I fucked back in april told her friends I raped her after I said I wouldn't date her.

I'm 26 and sick of this shit, If anyone point me in the direction of some self help that would be awesome. All I want to do is have a couple decent looking plates that come over and fuck me a few times a week. I didnt realize it would be this much of a struggle by the time i got to this point in my life.