I'll start by saying I've been aware of the redpill for a little bit now and I believe I have swallowed it and avoided the anger phase. I grew up in a female dominated house hold with a father id see occasionally. The result of this is the making of Mr Nice Guy Psilo, but this has been unconditioned rather quickly when I became of the redpill and in that awareness I realised how manipulated I had truly become by women. I was a door mat.

I discovered the redpill shortly after breaking up with my fiancé after being unable to continue due to the physical and verbal abuse I could not take anymore. I was a Beta. I believed this woman was a unicorn and to me she was. She was a virgin (but told me 8 months fucking later someone had actually fucked her before, holding back intense fucking emotions right now) and loved me like my mother loved me, how much more comfortable could you be? I held frame throughout the whole relationship and was indifferent naturally when her verbal abuse came out which were pretty well intense shit tests that could escalate to violence at any time.

What happened doesn't matter. I ended it with her and that wasn't too long ago. Since then I have recieved a letter stating I have been following her, calling her and abusing her which I have done none of the following. I lived with her and her parents were full aware of the abuse I went through but her parents constructed this letter. It was an attempt at a restraining order but unofficial and bullshit. I took it to the police and they told me not to worry and they would sort it out. Since then I've tried to keep a cool and successfully beside the incredibly degrading and disrespectful letter.

Since then she has outwardly claimed to have suffered domestic violence from me to her parents and contact (I could care less honestly doesn't effect me) but I was the one who was beaten. I was the one who was abused daily and she claims she was the one. This really fucked me up but once again I maintained frame and couldn't give two shits because bitches be crazy.

Tonight I went clubbing with some mates to get over this week and meet some new people. I applied some red pill knowledge and successfully hooked up with a Hb8 who was 4 years older than I (24) and passed the "How old even are you?" Shit test with flying colours. The real reason I'm posting this is because I was enjoying time with my mates and guess who happens to be there? Guess who fucking happens to be there to stare at me while she grinds random blokes in a desperate attempt and to viciously make out with them metres from me. I fucking kept my frame, I didn't crack because it isn't worth it. But my once unicorn was purposely trying to get at me by kissing these blokes Infront of me.. Rubbing her ass all over there crotch and giving its all its got in attempt to crack me. Luckily it never cracked me, really im over her and her bullshit.

It hurts thought, it really does. I got home and cried my eyes out for an extended period of time. To claim I physically abused her for so long, to try claim I stalk her and try enforce a restraining order. To get all over these dudes and later take one away to fuck just to crack me I just don't get it Redpill community... I'm so hurt and I know I'm just processing all this shit but it really hurts to know that woman I slept next to for so long could be so vicious and hurtful intentionally. My frame never cracked so she never got what she desired fortunately through this whole thing but I can't keep it in any more, I'm so close to getting my gun out and sorting things out (seriously wouldn't do it but it's an expression how angry I am because of her actions)

Regardless I thank you all for listening to my vent, I really needed to get this out to the people that truly understand women and their sick and twisted ways. I know what I need to do from now and that's continue to keep up no contact and not crack. I would really appreciate some other advice if so be helpful.