EDIT:It's been brought to my attention i should detail about myself some so others can relate so here we go. About me: Im 20 years old, I discovered TRP when i was in a deep depression from my last break up, it hasn't been a full year yet but its coming up soon. I'm 6ft 160 lbs , i have dreads that go a little below my shoulders. Im mostly lean bulit but thanks to TRP i've added some muscle. Used to do modeling acting singing you name it, so im good at pretending, to say the least and i guess my face is a solid 6 or 7 no real flaws but not much to really look at i'd say.

This is a continuation of part one

TL;DR Girl tries to explain to me "Loving two people at once"

Continuing from post 1 , Me and this girl, S, were outside of my house and i just finished asking where her boyfriend was. She informed me that he was with his parents in the mountains. 

Lets Fast-forward , the night is winding down, and although her reason she was staying was she didn't feel sober enough to drive at least 3 hours had passed since we got to my house.(Not sure about you guys but i would be TOO sober after a few hours) I tell her *"You wanna come watch a movie or you leavin?"* and start heading up the stairs to my room she follows meekly.         We make it to my room and i put on the movie "The babysitter"(Netflix 2017)(Honestly if you haven't watched it and wanna watch a funny movie i would watch it). We laugh at the movie and as the movie continues she keeps seeming to lay closer and closer to me on the bed.      Now i've been the guy that's had HB9 HB10 in my bed and never did shit cause *what if the feeling isn't mutual* *what if she doesn't wanna be friends anymore* *what if she tells people i RAPED her*(It happens it's been a few times for me). However i broke this chain of thought using my new RP logic, She wouldn't be here, drinking, laying in my bed, time to man up and DO not THINK.   So i pull her in by her hips (we are both lying on our sides) and start to move her hips a little to grind her ass into my dick so she can feel it pressing against her(Few of my ex's have said it's a huge turn-on and good foreplay so add it to the playbook if you want).  I can hear her getting excited she starting to breathe really shallow almost in gulps so i figure i'm on a good track so i feel her up until i'm under her shirt with a hand pinching her nipples. She jumps up *"IM SoRRY!"* , I'm confused at this point but i figured i wasn't expecting any anyways so it wasn't like i was upset. *"For why?"* *"...i don't know"* .     Deciding it would be easier to NOT talk about this i roll over and face the other way and simply state *"Don't worry about it"* turn to look at her and flash a quick smile then pull my phone out and browse TheRedPill .

Repeat the event of me feeling her up and her going with it until she says stop like three times before i'm frustrated and go to take a smoke, i accidentally pick up her phone as leave the room(I had still been drinking) and open messenger, i realize it's her phone and about 4 minutes ago she sent her boyfriend a message saying "I love you so much, i cant get you off my mind" It made it very real to me i would be hurting somebody if i fucked her but surprisingly i didn't care. BP me would've shat bricks and demanded she tell him what we'd done but when i came back to the room i just sat her phone down casually and said "You know it's good that im good at keep secrets" She smiled and laid on my chest and we fell asleep this way.

That all happend on the 27th , on the 30th she came over saying she wanted to "tell" me something. Knowing it was code for i'm ready to fuck now i let her come over. Get ready for a block of text i think it shows good insight into the mind of a female so enjoy .

"Can you help me start the conversation, I don't know what to say, Shadowsduh."

"What did you have on your mind when you said you wanted to talk?"

"Oooo that's good, umm, I catch myself thinking stuff i shouldn't. Like i keep thinking about you and how much i need you."

"Im right here"

"I want you in ways i shouldn't though, i think about you all day and i keep seeing myself doing things i shouldn't with you. Its so hard not to, Its not that i don't want to i just don't wanna hurt anybody"

Shes crying at this point, I grab the back of her head and make her look me in the eye, i calmly smile and say

"Does it look like im hurting ?" Smiles a little harder and cheesy to bring the point home. She laughs

"It's crazy how calm you are all the time you don't even argue anymore"

"Well arguing would imply the other sides point was worth debating"

She laughs again, "See you are like a pillar of calmness, i wonder what happened to the old you" "Eh, is that all you wanted to talk about"

"No i just need you to know something, i love you , it's always been you and no matter how i've lied to myself and tried to make myself being here with you makes me remember and i'm even more in love with you now than before, but i love E(BF) too, you've never had any competition and it tears me apart, i couldn't bare to hurt either one of you"

"Do what makes you happy, i'll be okay either way"

"See that's why i love you, you always know what to say"

"It's getting late im gonna go ahead and walk you out" "..........."

"Hows that sound?"

"I guess that's a good idea, cause if i stay here and break down who knows what would happen?"

I understood this as an open invitation but im at work right now and that was last night, if i was gonna make it to work i needed her to leave. Instead of replying i picked up her keys for her and start making my way outside, open her door and she hugs me three times before she finally is ready to go.

RP points to note

  • Women do not invest in those they aren't interested in, if she's paying you any type of attention and you aren't orbiting you're in a good zone, remember this feeling it should be your comfort zone.

  • Women seem to have some type of FALSE memory programmed, she did NOT love me the last time i tried with her she wouldn't even give me the time of day. However this can be in our favor if how you treat them in the moment can change how they THINK they felt about you in the past it would explain how some women start with an alpha who over time becomes beta then they leave cause they feel like they NEVER loved him.

  • Don't listen to what women say but to what it means, just a couple examples here (Her sending her boyfriend the message saying that she loved him(It means she was thinking about a life without him and she isn't fully ready for it), her long speech but still wanting to spend the night(It means despite all the crying she would still cheat just for the night of fun)