I’d like to preface this post by saying that I’m still in high school and I’m still learning.

As I sit in the company of the trees, waiting to depart to work, a thought hit me: how blessed I am to be where I am. I was reading an old post today that went something along the lines of: “remember why you’re here”. I’ve got a long journey in front of me and I wouldn’t say I’ve swallowed the pill although I wish it were that easy. I digress.

The post got me thinking about why and how I discovered this sub. I loved a female and I genuinely did everything one should NOT do. Like, if you read the sidebar... take the opposite of that. Throw in a sprinkle of no self respect and a pinch of orbiting and you have me.

I mean, I still see dreams with this girl in them. I see her in school everyday. She ripped my heart out. I should be angry, right? Nah. On the contrary, she’s the best thing that ever happened to me. She showed me what NOT to do with a female. I made time for her. I insisted on paying. I was all pull, no push. I had no self respect.

Now every time I’m with another female, I do the opposite of what I did with her. Watching these high school bitches go crazy is the funniest thing ever because they don’t even know what’s going on their heads. I’m not focused on females at all but I find it hilarious how many more girls show me IOIs after I started applying principles of TRP that were exemplified by what I did with my oneitis and everything I did wrong.

I’m still working on getting over her. I don’t focus all of my efforts into fucking other women because I’m still in high school. I’ve been lifting hard and eating well. Reading a whole lotta Robert Greene and I got some Machiavelli on the way.

The funniest thing is? If she would’ve accepted me, I would’ve probably spent my college years as a BP beta, working overtime and studying and lifting to try to impress her with money while chad and his pals were balls deep in her.

It’s like Tyler Durden says in Fight Club: “It’s only once we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything.”