I posted recently about a potential 3 way with my wife and her best friend. I messed around with her BFF but didn't go all the way because I felt guilty. Now I can't stop thinking about a relationship with this other girl and I'm finding myself really unhappy with my wife.

I haven't been really happy in this relationship for a while but after this experience it seems worse to me. We have a kid together and I don't want to jeopardize anything with him, but I don't know how I can continue with my wife. I've been really beta in this marriage in the past and have been trying to take the red pill but I keep getting sucked back into beta behaviors. Wife makes a lot more money than I do.

Why an I obsessed with this other girl? She's pretty much a slut who cheated on her live in boyfriend with me. I keep feeling that she'd be a good wife based on her personality, but logically it just doesn't make sense considering her past sluttiness.

I feel like I'm being completely retarded here. I just don't know how to proceed. Just divorce? Try to hook up with this other girl?