Lately I’ve been craving to argue with people, to openly disagree with them, to refuse their requests and to shut down their opinions. I feel that, in this softened society I - and many others – live in, strangers are all just expected to agree with each other, go through the motions and act like we really, really, care for one another and are best friends just because we happen to live in roughly the same place. To me this feels extremely artificial and tiring.

It’s not like I hate my neighbours, my colleagues and the strangers I see every day, nor am I looking to just go out and pick a fight, but I just want to be kept on my toes – to keep my mental edge sharp so that someone truly dangerous or aggressive doesn’t sneak up on me and screw me over some day. Heck, I’d even welcome running into a disagreeable person who could give me some harmless attitude, for a change.

I’ve been noticing this more and more ever since I started changing to TRP mindset. I think it’s a consequence of me wasting much less time and energy on meaningless bullshit, with the consequent surplus in vitality and mental energy making me edgier and more active. Now more than ever I willingly put myself in uncomfortable situations, venture into the unknown on my own and interact more actively with strangers while making less and less effort to please them or appear like a nice guy, all because I think these things will contribute to my personal development and make me a more grown, experienced individual. Plus, it’s very rewarding when you run into an unknown situation in which you can only depend on yourself and realize you have to rely on past experience and knowledge to solve the problem.

I don’t want to make the post too long, so I’ll just ask if anyone feels like this, and if so how do you deal with it.