I feel lost. My emotions and happiness when I look at a girl have been replaced with indifference. I'm confused, my feelings are all mixed up.

I know the red-pill is a good thing, it's what I needed to take and move forward. And for the first few weeks, I was enraged and pissed, feeling reactionary and I'll have to admit misogynistic. It shifted towards excited about how now the world was my oyster and could play with women like I love playing with dogs (I say that in a positive way, not a demeaning/'men are better' way). I was excited, and actually started spinning a couple plates, was stunning to see the change. But after a house party last night (pretty fun, although the average body fat was way too high), this new feeling has set in...

It's not depression. Not suicidal. Maybe sadness? It feels like more than a system reset that a computer goes through, like I've disappeared into a hole.

Any of the pill takers go through this? Might be from the stress from school and graduation/career decisions. I know I'll push through this, been hitting the gym and making some solid connections with my fellow mates, but would be nice to get a second opinion.

Edit: appreciate all the input. I'm learning from more thought that it has more to do with me looking at the past, with all the beta moments and then projecting that anger/sadness into the current and future situations, instead of realizing that the past is the past, and now is where to start