I workout and take care of my skin.

I’m not short. Some call me tall. But I’m definitely above average.

It’s just tiny little things keeping me from being a straight up ten. My nose is just slightly too wide from the front, not straight enough from the side. My jaw is defined, but not that much. From the front it’s strong, but not really. From the side it’s recessed, but only by a fraction.

I’ve had people, many actually, tell me “you should try modeling,” but I guess I can see the imperfections they can’t. Also, I’m very active on Instagram but have never been contacted, “scouted” by any agency, which is usually what happens these days.

Some girls just stare at me when they think I can’t see them, while others don’t even appear aware of my existence.

Girls that shower me with attention are usually younger than me, <18, while the girls I’m actually interested in (usually older than me, I’m an old soul) don’t touch me with a thirty foot pole, even though, there have been a couple older girls that showed interest.

My sisters’ friends comment on my appearance (to said sisters), it’s a regular occurrence, however, here I am, still single and still a virgin.

This has led me to conclude that I’m neither ugly nor attractive, but rather caught in a limbo between the two, where girls will say I’m attractive but still not fuck me if their life depended on it.

And before anybody says anything, yes. Personality matters. So does having hobbies, passions, making money. But I’ve never had a problem with that stuff. Not really. Sure I know how to be engaging and witty and dominant. I’m still working on the confidence part though. I suppose I may look it to others but, great god, I’m not. I’m also a multi-instrumentalist recording artist with s satisfactory amount of streams. Plenty of hobbies. And, for a college freshman, money isn’t bad.

I just...I don’t know.

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