A little bit of background: I'm 17, and I discovered the redpill/manosphere at the beginning of last school year. I have almost no experience with women, in large part because I go to an all boys Catholic school. Also, I don't hang out with people outside of school ever.

I met this girl while I was riding my bike to an art museum. I saw her sitting alone studying with nobody else in sight and realized that it was the perfect opportunity. I went up and asked her if she was studying. She said yes and started talking. She Luckily for me she was very talkative and warm. She said she was a 20 yr old exchange student from Turkey. We continued talking, and I started touching her on the shoulder. I shook her hand for a while pretending that I didn't understand her name. I was going to suggest that I give her a tour of the art museum, but she brought it up first. We were walking next to a small lake, and I playfully pretended to shove her in saying that we should take a swim.

We got inside the art museum and started exploring. We continued talking and having fun. I was looking for every opportunity to touch her playfully. It was easy to remember what to do because I was in a rare calm state. At one point she told me that I treated her like a child, and I took this to be a very good sign that I had the right "frame". Anyway, at the end of the instant date she wrote her WhatsApp on a napkin and we parted ways with a hug. I was elated that to have made such monumental progress. That was the first time I ever had a real date with a girl that lasted for a few hours.

I didn't start texting her until about 2 weeks after. I figured that she had probably forgot about me and that the interaction had fizzled out, but I tried anyway. She texted back but she thought I was someone else at first. She remembered me though and we planned to meet up once she got back from NY.

We decided to meet on Tuesday evening. We meet near a library at 8:00 pm. I was going to take her around the different parks in my area on bike. This was good because it put me into a leading frame since she didn't know the area. We biked and talked until we got to the nature center. We started hiking and she saw a deer and stopped to take a picture. We got close to it and she wanted to follow it around. After it had left we went down the trail. The whole time I was still trying to get in some appropriate kino. We stopped at a secluded area and I showed her my tree climbing skills. I coerced her into trying to climb herself. She was struggling a lot, and I picked her up to help her. Holding her in my arms, I started getting a boner. Even though it was not visible, I awkwardly held my leg in front of my crotch wondering if she would notice. We continued on, and I pointed out a blackberry bush to her and began eating some. She was holding onto me and taking my hand for support while walking on logs. After that, we stopped at a place where the view was spectacular, and she wanted to take some pictures. I wanted to take her to another park, but she said that her exchange family wanted her back before dark. I took her home. We planned to see the parks again, but our schedules conflicted. She went back to Turkey, and texted me thanks for the fun.

It's back to ground zero for me.  I never kissed her, and it may have all been delusion on my part.  If you take anything from this, remember to always be closing, and escalate fast (at least when you are a beginner).  I had imagined that I would take her to the one park, and then consummate the relationship with her at the next park when it was dark and nobody was there.  In reality though, I didn't have the balls to just grab her and kiss her.

The beginning of this journey is the hardest. I started approaching at the beginning of July, and this is the only progress I have made. 95% of what I have done is asking women what time it is. I'm still rather scared of direct approaching or even staying in set. I have a total of one direct approach, in which I flat out told a girl I thought she was cute. Haven't done it since. I haven't done any approaching for a while now. It's very easy to lose motivation. Some nights I go out with the intent to approach, and when I end up not even asking a single girl for the time I go home upset and depressed and unable to sleep. To get motivated, you need to get yourself frustrated to the point of just losing your care for others opinions, social conditioning, and even your own fears because you really want to just win for once. Unfortunately for me, even though I am a "hard case newbie" in terms of my crippling anxiety, I am actually extremely content. I eat very well - all organic, local, homegrown, etc. I practice nofap. I have multiple hobbies which fulfill me greatly - playing the piano, riding my biking, going to the pool, playing video games, reading. To top all of that off, I am above average looking, above 6 foot tall, and have above average intelligence. Yet, none of it matters. I'm still lazy, and have multiple mental blocks. So I am both content and frustrated, and motivated and unmotivated in cycles. Its driving me crazy on top of all the damn life decisions I have to make now that I'm going into my senior year and becoming an adult. Folks, your mental frame is truly one of the most important things for success in anything you do. I think I'm gonna write a post about that at some point.