Post is long today. I really appreciate all the people who take their time to read it and comment on it. Thank you

Today was very interesting. I did good today. I got some approaches in and got some numbers. I was supposed to go out for coffee with this girl today around 4pm. I was gaming around before that. I got a text from her around 3pm saying that something came up and had to cancel, fucking bitch. Well there goes that.

Anyway, the approaches today were mixed. I got rejected a lot, a lot of women lost interest. It's expected, today was nice day and tons of women had shit to do and people to meet. I didn't work on the things I needed to work on. I try to but I still feel anxious and nervous. I just have to keep approaching.

Okay, I set out to the first area and do some "Hit and Runs" It was good. I approached 5 women in that area and moved on. I moved on to the second area and I feel stifled, did another "Hit and Run" and went to go eat. I went to the gym and I needed some carbs, otherwise I was going to feel like shit and it will effect my performance.

I approached two girls, one of them from the side while the other a full frontal one. The first didn't reciprocate or care at all while the other one said thanks and went around me as I approached her from the front. There was this short girl coming from the other side. I tail behind her and waited for my chance. I did a mixture of a front/side approach. She gave me a bitch attitude and I let her walk, to be honest that set made me bitter. I said "bitch" and said it so she could hear me. I'm not perfect, I know the people here who approach feel the same way at times. I didn't care.

I was still feeling tired so I get myself a coffee. The second I leave the coffee shop a well dressed woman was walking towards my end. I immediately approach her, directly. She was flattered and we chatted. The conversation wasn't the greatest. I was talking way too much and was trying so hard to come up teases and spikes. I was going into interviewing mode. She had to go and I went for the number. She gave it, checked Whatsapp and turns out it was real.

After that approach and number close my mood and attitude went up. I was happy to be honest. In between going to another area I was doing some more "Hit and Runs", complementing all types of women. There was this white girl I approached, turns out she was from France. The conversation, once again, wasn't that great. It was too generic. I could tell she wasn't that interested. Got her number though.

As I was walking down the street this thick Spanish girl passed me. I approached her but she told instantly that she had a boyfriend. I still stayed, trying to warm up and get comfortable. The conversation was going down fast. I left. More and more approaches, rejection and girls leaving after the opening.I approached this gorgeous white girl, really pretty. At this point I was sort of in state. We talk, turns out she's a model and we talk some more.

"I need you to be honest with me, okay?"

"Ugh, sure."

"Do you think I have what it takes to be a model?" I told her as she paused.

"Err...I don't want to say."

I was weak. I was laughing. I told her that since she didn't want to respond to it, it was clear as day. I laughed and went for the number. She said no and I was cool with it.

After that, more and more approaches, from the side and what not. Some indirect and others direct. I still felt uneasy for some reason. This was before I got cancelled on.I was wasting a lot of time today just idling. I wasn't approaching as I normally would. I worked on my front stop but it's still weak as some of these women would walk around me and say thanks.

Approached this white girl about her sense of style, she was happy and we talked about movies, I got her number. Approached this Gothic girl, it was indirect but I can tell she interested as we were talking about things that interested her. Out of all the approaches today, that one was the best one. She had the "Anime Eyes" as Tyler says. I was focusing on eye contact and letting her chat, I got her number but the downside was that she's very busy that the only time I can go out with her is next Saturday, still it's better than nothing.

More approaches, got this Indian girl's number. We had a great conversation. She told me drinks a lot, I guess that's a red flag? I'll let you guys decide. That's when I got the text from the girl, cancelling on me. I was down to be honest, I brushed it off as I went to a coffee shop and chilled for a bit.

Here is when the day turned in a different angle. After spending an hour in the coffee shop I was feeling kinda bummed out and a little bitter. I approached few more girls and I was getting depressed. The numbers from the girls I really liked were duds and no responders. I just approached this amazing tight Asian girl, we had an amazing conversation and have so much in common. I was confident going for the number close but she tells me she has a boyfriend. I left smiling but as I sat down I let out a heavy sigh.

I felt drained and exhausted. Exhausted getting rejected and getting dud numbers. Exhausted meeting really awesome women with similar commonalities but have "boyfriends", true or not. Exhausted meeting bubbly nice women only to find out that they are taken.

I was feeling like absolute shit at the end of my daygame session today. My approaches after that was garbage. Hot girls, weak stops. My mind was telling me;

"What's the point?"

"Salted_Pretzel, they are just going to not respond anyway."

"They're taken by someone better than you."

All these thoughts popped in. As I was walking this Asian girl passed me, my body went into auto pilot and approached, she was very receptive, she was kinda ditsy but I was feeling a little confident that I can pull it off. She invited me for tea and I was shocked in the inside. She was genuinely asking stuff about me and asked to get tea with her. I was feeling good again. We go to this small bubble tea place. I didn't want bubble tea but got it anyway.

"Hey, let's go sit somewhere" I said, trying to take the lead.

"I can't I have to go this shop."

"Sure" I said as I number closed her. At the end I told her that she's attractive and I would like to take her out for coffee. Her face turned dark and told me;

"Ugh, I like meeting new people but, I have a boyfriend"

I immedietly said bye, and threw my full iced tea away. I was mad. I literally went up to her and told her she looked amazing yet she couldn't get the idea. I felt stupid. I was filled with a mix with anger and fatigued. I wanted to bash every women who rejected me today on the head on the wall. I haven't felt like this in a long, long time, a feeling of despair, bitterness and anger.

While waiting for the train I approached another girl. She wasn't giving me much. I excused myself. Everything felt the same. Bitches who think they're better than everyone and their only value is their looks. I was thinking about that the train commute home. All these women have no value or substance. Their appearance is what they are capable of. It's sad, seeing these women who put on makeup for what? It's pathetic.

Even though I had a great daygame session today, approaching a lot, getting numbers and getting better at it I couldn't help but feel very defeated. I felt drained and emotional. I know these are bumps and issues I have to face in this journey. Everyone who is successful with women go through these.

Reading my past entries I'm pleased with the progress. Before I had a problem just saying hi and approaching a women and now it's this. You find solutions to problems only to encounter bigger problems.