I am 27 years old and for the first 25 years of life I was the biggest, wettest, slobbering pussy on the planet. I grew up in a mormon family. My father was (is) a huge beta and my mother is an extremely strong domineering woman. This gave me mixed messages in youth because the official teachings of the LDS faith state that the father should be at the head of the household. In practice, however this is not always observed and I learned all of the “correct” dating habits from my mother. In high school I was well known but did virtually no dating. The one or two girls I did manage to date were scared off by my beta behavior, I never even had a chance. Being a natural introvert, as well as a quick study, I could not fathom why (as a nice guy) I would be passed over time and time again for these absolute assholes. Men who would openly disrespect women, mistreat them, and talk down to them were somehow swimming in a river of beaver and I was left on the shore stacking wood.

When I studied psychology for the first time, I began to understand human interaction on a level I had never perceived previously. It took years of observation and study but I finally was able to “fake” being an extrovert quite well. I understood syntax, body language, ulterior meanings, and was finally able to read between the lines. However, one glaring oversight was dating. Even though I was better at being a good listener, better at showing empathy, better at communication, I was a far cry away from being Alpha. I was friend-zoned so many times it stopped be funny and I stopped being amused. I literally thought there must be something wrong with me. Why was it that I couldn’t seem to attract any woman I was even remotely interested in? I lost my virginity to a fat chick (and a whore) I stopped dating altogether. I became a chronic masturbator. I joined reddit.

One day as I was clicking “random” on the top bar of reddit (something I do constantly) I stumbled across TRP. Normally I immediately click away and onto the next sub-reddit but for some reason this caught my attention. I don’t know if it was the matrix analogy or the names of the posts, but something drew my absolute and immediate attention to this page. What was I seeing? These men seemed to be bitter old assholes. Misogynists through and through. I read a few articles (for a good laugh) and something stuck with me. I read more. I read “Don’t be like Bruce”. That article struck a cord with me, something primal stirred within me crying out for more. I remembered the book Walden “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.” I refused to be Bruce. I refused to live a life of quiet desperation. I refused to be beaten, least of all by my own limitations. I read the entire sidebar that night.

Fast forward 6 months-

I now work out 5-6 times a week. My diet is 100% improved and I have lost a lot of fat, and packed on significant muscle. I’ve read 48 Laws of Power, The Way of Men, The Manipulated Man, The Art of Seduction, The Art of War, The 33 Strategies of War and I am currently 2/3 finished with Mastery by Robert Green (great book if you have the time)

My relationships with women have improved tenfold. This applies to all women. What truly surprised me however is that applying TRP principles (non-sexual of course) works wonders on my mother. She knows she cannot mistreat me as she does my father. She knows there are boundaries, limitations on what I will stand for. And do you know what? Our relationship is stronger than it has ever been.

I ask women out constantly. When they reject me I smile, I nod, and I move the fuck on with my life. I have had countless women I used to know tell me I’ve changed. Women I used to beg for a relationship are now obsessed with us “hanging out” telling me that “its been too long” “why don’t you call anymore?” and a plethora of other musings.

Why am I telling all this? A couple reasons. One? To get this off my chest. I have been a long time lurker of this forum and have taken so much from you all. It’s only fair that I give back what I can to the community. Secondly, to let those know who may still be on the sidelines that this WORKS.

As so many before me have said, if someone like me (who is nothing special) can turn into an absolute Alpha then you can too! I refuse to associate myself with anything beta, and as soon as I decide that something is a beta behavior (I.e. masturbation) I work like crazy to change my habits. One of my favorite self talk phrases is that “I am an Alpha.” If I am observing a beta behavior in myself then the phrase is “I am an Alpha with a few beta traits.” To me this is infinitely better than saying something like “I am a beta learning to be alpha.” Fuck that. I am and always will be an Alpha. To be any less is to live a life of quiet despair.

Seize the day brothers.

B