Long time reader, first time poster.

Situation is as such: I've had very good luck embracing the Red Pill. I've moved up the ranks and dominated some high ranking women. Overall, I'm very happy with the way things have gone and how much I've learned.

However, last year I met her. She was a server at a lounge that the boys and I started going to, and she was gorgeous. 5'4, crimped natural blonde hair and a ridiculous body. Perfect teeth, perfect smile, and a sterling personality. Absolutely perfect. The only problem was the wedding ring.

Now over the course of a couple weeks, the guys kept trying to work her, and she matched their advances with coy and witty retorts. This girl was something else. One evening, I stopped in alone and we chatted like we normally do, but this time I asked for her number. She smiled and put it in my phone, and text herself.

Now, I was well aware she's married, and I was well aware her husband was working out of town. I was well aware that her and I got along very well, I just didn't know how I felt about anything. She was off limits, right?

She got off work at 2, and text me. Asked what I was doing, where I was. Long story short, I ended up with her address, instructions to let myself in, and directions to the master bedroom...

So begins my affair with a married woman. It was amazing. It lasted months, hubby working and me dating his wife. Like all good things, it ended for the most part when he got a in town job.

We still see eachother once in a while, we fool around and we talk about feels. Thing is, I can't seem to realize this broad is bad news. She cheated on her hubby, with the kids in the house. She texts me when hes laying next to him sleeping, tells me she misses me and wants me.

There is more baggage and trouble circling around her than I'd ever want in a lifetime, yet here I am stuck with oneitis.

Have F-Closed since, and it's nowhere as good, no where as exhilarating. Why do I base my kills off this one broad? Is it just the taboo of it all?

Fix me